Tuesday, January 17, 2017
Once the Christmas decorations were down and put away, I looked at the winter months spreading before me and wondered just how I would get through those long days when my hubby was off to work. Oh, I had plenty to do. The desk is covered with family papers, old letters, and photos needing to be sorted, filed, and archived. I promised myself I would get that done after the first of the year.
I'd begun going through closets and cupboards sorting and tossing while I put away Christmas, but I still had much more of that type of sorting and tossing to do.
Books are stacked waiting to be read during the winter months.
Writing a personal history was also on my to do list.
I had my ladies groups at church to look forward to. And, there is my writing group that needs to get going again. All of that would also take up much of my time. Not to mention that I could always go to lunch with my girlfriends. Yes, I had all of that going on, and I so enjoy these activities.
I'd started a workout plan on our new elliptical machine. I hoped to make sure I also got the club to do water aerobics at least twice a week. There were Zumba classes being offered, and those low impact aerobics class also.
I promised myself that I would start cooking more at home and planning healthier meals. I have been pretty consistent in doing that since the beginning of December.
Yes, I had plenty to do while Jim was working.
Yet, I could not shake the desire to go back to work, so there was this job, and I applied for it. As I told one of my girlfriends, I hate filling out the application process on-line, so one day, I sat myself down and completed the process anyway, partly as a practice of discipline.
I had another year and a half left on a teaching license that I had renewed and never used since I had renewed it. It took some doing just to renew that license on-line. I'd had to reconstruct all the professional development I had done, prove I had done it, and submit all the papers to get the renewal. It seemed so much easier when we just found our papers and submitted them to the Colorado Department of Education. Now, it all had to be done electronically. My husband, and many of my friends thought I was crazy for doing it. "Why do you want to renew again?" In my heart, I just wasn't ready to let that hard won certificate expire, so I renewed it. After all of that, I had never used the renewed certificate to teach again.
Mostly, I have just been missing working in the profession I loved so much. I missed the mental and intellectual challenge that teaching brings. I missed the contact with students. I missed working with other teachers. I wanted and needed the feeling that my days had a purpose that met the passion I have always had for teaching.
A phone call came. An interview was granted. I was greatly impressed by the principals I met. I loved the school. I was excited about the possibilities. The next day, a job was offered. I took it.
Today, I signed a contract to teach again. I will begin my new job on January 24. I will be teaching ELL (English Language Learners, or English as A Second Language. I will go between three elementary schools and one middle school in School District 11. I am quite happy about it all.
Tonight we went to dinner to celebrate that I had signed a contract to teach through the end of the school year. As Jim signed the check, I mentioned to the waiter that we had just eaten a celebratory dinner. Soon, very unexpectedly, the waiter reappeared with a dessert to help me celebrate my new adventure. He said,
"Thank you for being a teacher."
After I signed my paperwork today, I was quite humbled to think that I can again become a part of a profession that has given me so much more than I ever gave it. I'm grateful to have the health and the desire to go back and work with young people again. I'm looking forward to mentoring and working with the aides whom work with the ELL population in the schools where I will be working.
Many years ago, a fellow worker in the school where I worked said to me, "I could never give up working as an elementary school secretary, because I'm hooked on the smiles I get each day." I understand that. I love seeing the light come on and the excitement that a child expresses when he or she finally understands and can speak a language that is new to them. I can't wait to get back to working with my dear ELL students.
Thursday, January 12, 2017
Just back from a massage, my muscles a bit more relaxed, my tensions beginning to ease, hungry, now that is well past noon, I toast some raisin bread, grab the peanut butter, and pour myself a glass a milk while I pick up my phone so I can check out what is happening on Facebook.
The White House tribute and farewell to Vice President Joe Biden is live. He had just been awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom. The farewell speech is nearly over when I join others watching this man speak so lovingly and respectfully about his time in office and about the friendship and bond that has developed between President Obama and himself. Heart emoticons, and thumbs up emoticons float across the bottom of the screen on phone. Comments are scrolling below the emoticons. I hit the heart emoticon and think about how much I love this man and his boss. Words like dignity, class, civility, and humility come to my mind as I watch the man we commonly call Joe speak. He hits the nail on the head for when he describes Obama as a man devoid of any sense of entitlement. I would say the same could be applied to Joe Biden.
I begin to reflect upon our current political environment, upon my own political beliefs, and about the world of politics in which I have lived since I was a child. To me, The Office of the President of the United States has never really been about politics. I have respected all of the presidents whom have presided over our country throughout all of my lifetime because of a sense of patriotism that was bred in me from my earliest days. I learned values of respect for my elders, for my leaders, and for our system of government while I sat at the dinner table and was encouraged by my father to participate in whatever discussions we would have at dinner. I learned these same values all throughout my school career.
I learned American History from my parents and grandparents as stories of our own family history, so linked to the history of this country, were told on long Sunday afternoon rides throughout the countryside of Colorado, or when we took vacations with our grandparents.
As I watched those emoticons float across the screen, read the remarks that others made in the comments, on a Thursday afternoon in January, listening to Joe Biden speak, I wondered just why I was weeping again.
I had wept earlier this week as I listened to President Barack Obama give his farewell speech. I wept as if I were saying goodbye to a loved one and to an era which this loved one represented. Indeed, I had the sense that this was exactly what was happening. I was weeping because not only was a much admired and loved leader leaving office, but also because the end of an era which I had embraced so fully was coming to an end.
A sense of history washed over me as I listened to President Obama speak. I thought of the farewell addresses I had read and studied in school. I thought of the lessons and warnings that we as students were to discover from the departing president's speech. As we studied those speeches of past presidents, we were asked to note what could we learn about the times in which that president lived from the speech. What was the background for the remarks that we could learn from history? What did the speech tell us about the president himself, his administration, his goals and achievements? Earlier this week, as I listened to this man speak, our current and outgoing president, knowing we will not see the likes of his oratory skills for a long time to come, if ever in my lifetime, I resolved to get a printed copy of his speech so I could read it, ponder it, and reflect upon in the days to come.
Today, as I watched the love of a people float across the screen in form of emoticons as Vice President Biden spoke, I realized anew the very different type of connection we feel with each other and with our leaders during these days. In an instant, we can express to the rest of the world how we are feeling about any given moment in history as we view that moment live on the screen.
There were comments not worthy of the country in which we live that would pop up in the comments. Those commenters have the right to express such thoughts because of the rights we in America have, and I support the right to speak one’s beliefs as fundamental to our democracy, but oh how I miss the days of civility and respect. Yes, to be honest, and I wish to be, our democracy has never been perfect. We have a history that shows that often we have not shown respect or civility or social justice to our fellow citizens, but never, as far as I know, has such lack of respect and civility been seen in the behavior of those seeking public office as occurred during the election of 2016.
Phillip Yancey recently wrote the following about the political season we just survived:
First, civility lost. I must fault Trump especially for debasing the presidential campaign. He had a pejorative nickname for almost everyone: Crooked Hillary, Crazy Bernie, Low-Energy Jeb, Lyin’ Ted, Little Marco. In the three presidential debates, Trump interrupted Clinton almost one hundred times. He bullied people offstage and on, mocking a disabled reporter, disparaging women for their looks or their weight, playing to racist fears and ethnic prejudice. Bullying, racism, sexism, and xenophobia have always been present in American society, but never before has a candidate for the presidency modeled them so blatantly. Trump let the bats out of the cave, in effect legitimizing the darkest side of a free society.
On a Thursday afternoon in January, just a few short days before a new president steps into the highest office in the land, my mind went back to an earlier time in my life.
It was the Sixties. I was a freshman in college. To be exact, the year was 1963. Martin Luther King gave a speech, one I would later teach to ninth grade students, I Have a Dream that year. There was no civility or dignity or respect in that year when the Ku Klux Klan blew up a church in Alabama. It was in that era, in that time, when wars over civil rights were being fought in this country, that I walked across campus one night to hear John Howard Griffin speak about the experiences that he had that became the basis for his book, Black Like Me.
Away from home for the first time in my life, and in the academic setting, I began to develop more fully the beliefs about civil rights and social justice that I would hold throughout my lifetime.
In 1963, war was raging in Viet Nam, and I had seen many from my family and from among my schoolmates ship off to a place I'd never heard of before to fight in a war I didn't understand.
It was in those days when I walked down the hall of my dorm from my room to the community bath, that groups of girls dressed in nightgowns and pajamas, with rollers in their hair, would be sitting cross-legged in the hallway around a record player one of them had drug into the hall singing I Want To Hold Your Hand and I Saw Her Standing There. Those were the earliest days of Beatlemania.
Those thoughts all came to me on the heels of the memory I had today as I listened to Joe Biden and wept. I remembered another day in history when I had wept because I sensed an era had ended. That day in November I will never forget. The date was November 22, 1963. On that day, I listened to the radio in that dorm room in Wilson Hall on the campus of the University of Northern Colorado as it was announced to the nation that President John F. Kennedy was dead.
Yes, this is what this feels like, I said to myself as I watched Vice President Joe Biden bid his farewell to the nation. Seeing Obama and Biden leave office feels like I am seeing the death of Camelot again.
I surprised myself when I compared the previous eight years to Camelot. Certainly, I don't want to infer that these years have been the makings of a myth. A myth always involves a hero, and I am not one given to hero worship. Even as I think back to Kennedy, I know for certain that he was a flawed man with many traits I find personally reprehensible. While I greatly admire Barack Obama, I am not going suggest that he is without his faults. I do believe he will go down as one of the greatest presidents in the history of our country, but I know he did not always have my support on every issue.
So why am I feeling like I am bidding Camelot goodbye again? Why did I weep when both Obama and Biden bid us farewell?
When I was young, our country was so different. I believe we had a sort of innocence about us not found in today’s society. I have always believed we lost our innocence as a Nation that day when JFK was assassinated.
JFK transmitted a vision civic duty and participation to many of those of us whom came of age during his presidency. I was educated and came of age during post World War II. Our teachers and our parents, those from the Greatest Generation, taught us about dignity, respect, honor, civility, honesty, courtesy, patriotism. These values were modeled for us. I was taught at home and in school to read, to think, to question, to be responsible, to participate in civic discourse in an educated and informed manner.
So many of the values that I was taught, that I tried to teach to my children and to my students, that I have seen displayed in the public square for most of my life are disappearing in the current political climate.
Oratory skills have been lacking in much of our political world for a long time. Perhaps that is why I took such delight in listening to Obama whenever he spoke. His breadth of knowledge, his command of English language, his ability to inspire and motivate others to take positive action, were always on display when he spoke. It was apparent that he thought things through. He is a critical thinker. His legal training and expertise is apparent. Beyond that, he is a man who has faced many adversaries, but has emerged as a man who loves and respects others, and gives that love and respect freely. Have you ever seen him show disrespect? Have you? I haven’t. He loves his wife and his children. In many ways, he is Everyman. Perhaps that is why I find I like him so much. He is a man of the people. Yes, Joe Biden, he truly does seem to be a man without a trace of entitlement.
That is why I feel the sadness and sorrow that I do as I face the days of the incoming administration. I am not mourning the death of myth. I am not mourning a death of Camelot. I am mourning the death of all of those values and virtues that I held dearest in my leaders: civility, respectful treatment of others, a sense of dignity, evidence of critical thinking, wisdom, inspiration, hope for the future, and grace under fire.
Just before I embarked on writing this long post, as is my practice after I eat my lunch each day, I opened a piece of Dove chocolate. The inside of wrapping was imprinted with these words: “Be more loquacious, starting with learning the meaning of loquacious.” No one has ever accused me of not being loquacious. I love words. I place great value in the ability to use words well.
Now, we are entering an era where the incoming President of the United States does not seem to value the time honored way of our forefathers in fostering hope through the use of well-chosen words. We are entering an era where the President-elect chooses to communicate in sound bite like messages made up of 140 characters. We are entering an era where derogatory adjectives are applied to describe the person of which the President-elect is speaking. We are entering an era where truth is subjective. The times are being described as times of post-truth.
My grandmother’s maxim keeps coming to me whenever I hear of a new tweet being sent out from our President-elect ensconced like a demagogue (Oxford University Press definition in mind) in Trump Tower: Fool’s names and fool’s faces are always seen in public places.
Today, we lived in a time of great political divide. We always had political divisions. That is the American way, but I’ve never known the divides to be quite so divisive when it comes to friendships and family relationships. I’ve never seen political beliefs cause people to interact in disrespectful ways like I have in the few months. I’ve never seen my values and my beliefs questioned like they have been recently. “How can you be a Christian and think that way?” “You are a baby killer if you vote for Hillary.” Yes, all of that has been said to me. My patriotism has been called into question ever since I began supporting Obama years ago and stood against Bush and the wars he got us into.
|Jim & Sally|
Obama Rally 2008
I’ve been labeled a liberal, when I think of myself as a lifelong moderate. None of the personal affronts I have experienced matter to me, except that they represent a lack of ability to discuss issues rationally and are indicators that so many no longer respect differences of view and show disrespect towards those who see things in a different light. The attacks or label applications represent how we no longer appear to be able to discuss issues but rather prefer to slip into labeling and name calling. I mourn over the loss of civility that I have witnessed and experienced even in my closest relationships within my family, neighborhood, in friendships of long standing, and even in informal church gatherings.
I know many of you will not share the views and my beliefs that I have expressed in this post. I would not wish to live in a country where we all had to think alike. I certainly would not wish to live in a country where I had to participate in group think, nor would I wish to live in this great nation of ours if the very freedom that made us so great was stripped away from us: Freedom of Speech. Perhaps, that is what I fear most as I watch reporters and journalists being mocked by our President-elect. I fear we will lose our freedom of speech, and our freedom to express dissent.
I weep when I hear President Obama or Vice President Biden say their farewells because good and decent men are leaving the highest office of our land, and I fear that dignity, grace, and civility are leaving the Office of Presidency of the United State of America when they walk out the door. That is why I weep.